Da intensidade e da velocidade com que as coisas se vivem aqui.

Não há melhor exemplo que descreva a VELOCIDADE a que as coisas acontecem aqui, do que o que aconteceu esta semana: na 5ª feira estava nas nuvens; no fim de 6ª feira estava na merda; no Sábado voltei a estar nas nuvens; hoje, estou a flutuar no paraíso.

No espaço de 3 dias, fui do paraíso, ao inferno, e ao paraíso all over again. O que aconteceu aqui em 3 dias, teria acontecido em 3 semanas naquilo a que eu chamo de "tempo real". Se há 2 post's atrás eu escrevi o que escrevi vindo do fundo do coração, hoje já não me faz mais sentido, e lê-lo, é como ler um texto que outra Cláudia, noutra dimensão temporal e espacial, escreveu.

O Alexandre descreveu bem a experiência dele. Para ele, 5 dias representaram o mesmo grau de acontecimentos e mudanças, que a maioria das pessoas passa em 5 meses:

"Bare-naked, peculiar and wide opened things.

Since I came back from Amsterdam I feel that every situation I'm in and everything I have to face in my daily routine is shown to me in a bare-naked version. I don't see the facade and I don't let myself see the masks. As soon as you lived particular moments in a very intensive way you start to miss them and you look back and think how wonderful those moments were. We live in 2012. Everybody has pictures of their "special moments" and I keep on looking at the pictures I took in Amsterdam. I'm not saying that I'm reliving the moments I had there, because that would be impossible due to the fact that all I felt was too peculiar and that I don't believe that I can relive these moments again in a sober way. But what I can actually say is that I'm not the same person anymore. I see things in a different way and my eyes are wide open. I've always been someone that got easily fooled and manipulated and it took me a lot of time to face and accept that, because I knew that I couldn't handle changing it. Some might say that I should blame the obvious things that happened in Amsterdam. I would say (and as sad and dumb this might sound) that I thank the obvious things and that I'm glad that I experienced and that I (most of all) learned from these situations to handle myself and to grow in five days as much as some people might grow in five months. 

When I look back to everything that happened in Amsterdam, I feel an enormous need to talk. I believe that I have so much to say right now, but the words are somehow missing. I recommend anyone who is trying to get answers to unsolved situations in their life to go to Amsterdam and to have their lives changed, as I had mine."

Ao que eu respondi:

"Alex ♥ This text is just amazing and describes perfectly, what you live here. I agree with everything. You can imagine living in this kind of life and environment, that you lived for only 5 days, in 5 months? 6 months more for me? That's wh...y I always say I trully changed inside. Some decisions and options I make right now, are not the same I would in my "old life/reality". I really see everything with a total different perspective. I only don't agree with one thing you said: its not about coming to Amsterdam itself, to the city itself; you have to consider the THINGS you do, the OPTIONS you make, the PEOPLE you are with, and the WAY you react to situations. I believe a change like this one, that happened to your life and that is happening to mine, can be reached in any place at any time. It's all about how open your mind is, how much adaptation capacity you have, to which extent you are tolerant and open about surrender yourself to a change like this. And about your comment Sara, this is more of a whole wide transformation that we cannot only reduce to being sober or on drugs (I mean, not diminishing their importance, but obviously, also not reducing it to it)."

 

Às vezes tenho ponho em causa, mas mesmo a sério, a minha sanidade mental. Momentos há em que acredito que estou a ficar louca. No bom sentido.